Hey guys, I hope you all had a great new year, and a great holiday week. Because of it being Christmas vacation I haven’t had to work all week, not really. Sharon still came over, but one of my kids’ mom is a teacher, […]
Hey guys, I hope you all had a great new year, and a great holiday week. Because of it being Christmas vacation I haven’t had to work all week, not really. Sharon still came over, but one of my kids’ mom is a teacher, so she’s been home with him, and my other two were at their dad’s last week. So it’s just been Sharon and I. Taylor came over one day, then she was with Ashley, or her cousins.
I was really glad to have just one-on-one time with Sharon. We played, colored, read stories, and cuddled up to watch movies. We didn’t do anything real exciting but just hanging out with her is nice.. I’ve been babysitting her since she was 7 months old, and I love that I get to watch her grow up. She amazes me with how smart she is. Despite it just being Sharon, and she’d been super well behaved (it’s hard to be naughty when there’s no one to bicker with) we still decided she was going to take a nap. It was a mutual decision, when I asked her if she was taking a nap she agreed and went straight to sleep. She doesn’t take naps everyday anymore because she goes to school in the afternoon, and can’t 3/5 days a week. She does still take them on Mondays and Fridays.
On Christmas day, I started watching Glee again. How many times can you watch a TV series before it becomes a problem? I do love that show, and it’s great for background noise as I’ve seen it enough times to know that story lines to the episodes, and can mostly just listen to the music on the show.
Another thing I’ve managed to do this week was finally get all of my blog posts done and up. As I’ve said I had been struggling to see a point in blogging because “no one cares”, but I finally got out of that. Well I’m not completely over that, but I can work around the feeling. I’m still not overly confident that I’m not just annoying everyone.
Some ways I moved past it…
I quit checking my blog stats every day. My page views were staying the same. They’re a bit lower than last month and the month before but I think that’s just because I wasn’t posting very much…
Posh “PJs All Day” body butter. I got a tub of this for Christmas from Sharon and her parents. It’s got lavender oil in it, which lavender oil is great for calming anxiety attacks. I haven’t been sleeping real well lately, and it’s been because I lost my lavender oil but never went out to go get a new bottle. When I started using this at night, it helps fall asleep better. Which gave me more energy to focus when I am sat at the computer trying to write.
It was an easy breezy quiet week with just Sharon.
I decided that I wanted to keep up with my blog. I’m not writing for anyone but me, and while I appreciate you taking you time out of the day and reading it, ultimately I’m doing it for myself. So when ever I hit [ctrl]+[a] and delete because no one cares I reminded my self that I did, and I would start again. and again and again…
It’s going to take time to fully get back into it, but will. It’s fine, I’ll be fine… I am fine. Anxiety is fun isn’t it.
So since I am going to be more consistent, and I do want you to read and enjoy my blog. Please tell me in the comments what you want me to write about, and I’ll do my best. Even if it’s not specific topics I just want to know what you think… do you like my chatty updates, or do they ramble too much… Should I do more makeup looks? Do you want to know more about my anxiety and how I cope. Or do you want an obnoxiously long photo essay on my cats… (if you really want that then you can head over to my Instagram. It’s full of them)